A moron can look at our world and tell that something is horribly wrong with it. And the reason I know that a moron can do this, is because I can.
Some of John 3(NIV)
Now there was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus. He came to Jesus at night and said, "Teacher, we know you have come from God. For no one could perform the miracles you are doing if God were not with him." In reply Jesus declared, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again. How can a man be born when he is old?" Nicodemus asked. "Surely he cannot enter a second time into his mother's womb to be born!" Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, 'You must be born again.' The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit. For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."
The Bible says that all of us have sinned and fall short of the bar that God has set for entrance into Heaven (yes, even you). Can you believe that? Think of some of the truly wonderful people you know. Without Jesus, they aren't good enough to make it.
I remember sitting in a small boat, fishing in a farm pond with a friend. I thought he was crazy but I liked to fish so I was prepared to listen to him babble about this so called "Born Again" experience he had had. He said he had asked God to forgive him of his sin and God had changed him and that he was now going to live the rest of his life showing gratitude to Jesus for what he had done. He seemed to think that was the only possible response to a gift so great as complete forgiveness. He even told me that God was now speaking to me through him.
Hmmmm..See? Crazy. WHATEVERRR DUDE. Could we fish? Will have to admit the conversation stuck with me a little bit in that I, at least and for the first time, knew what was meant by "Born Again" and that this was kinda what these fruitcake Christians seemed so fired up and happy about.
In previous post, I've told you about my life and how screwed up it was. I hope I haven't led you to believe that I blame my circumstances for all the misbehaving I did. I don't..anymore. I eventually realized that every sin I ever committed came down to a decision I made. It is not involuntary to lift a joint. It is not involuntary to take too many sips. It is not involuntary to take her home. It is not involuntary to lose your temper. You have to give in to an impulse. I am not big on the whole addiction is a disease crap you've been fed.
You've been fed crap? ..that's disgusting.
So I got married..to the best friend of the wife of the guy in the boat...actually. And I was a selfish, nasty, mess of a human being and so was she...actually. Completely unprepared for the give and take of a partnership like a marriage..actually. Some of you knew both of us well back then and would have to agree..actually. A quick piece of advice, even though it is quite common, the next time you hear of someone who is in a bad marriage or you hear of a marriage crumbling, don't just ..you know.."Ohh, I feel so bad for them". Or kinda blow it off. Go find someplace real quick where you can lift those folks up in prayer.. because I promise you there is some world-class misery going on. Where one or both are thinking of ..not living or leaving or hurting the other..WORLD CLASS, INDUSTRIAL STRENGTH MISERY.
Anyway, in the midst of all this misery..in the midst of wanting to end this marriage..in the midst of another major failure in my life..and unbeknownst to me.. the WIND WAS BLOWING MY WAY. Something began to change in me. You would think that as things got worse, I would continue to play the blame game or continue to have the blind spot toward my part in all this but I began to see that there was one thing in common with every single problem that I had ever had in life...one common denominator...ME.
There was a guy at work. Been there for years. He was a humble, happy fellow but that didn't stop us from picking on him pretty regular about his obvious faith. But he could take it. He was one who could smile you down until you felt silly for attacking him. Smile you down you know..as opposed to stare you down. Ridiculously upbeat and friendly..didn't seem real and people would test it... It was real. He had a wife at home in a wheel chair and he had to do everything ..and I mean everything for her everyday and yet he was as happy and upbeat a fellow as I knew yet he would tell me I was an unforgiven sinner headed for hell in a skinny second. Oh yeah? SHUT UP!!
I began to notice him and speak with him about spiritual things when my situation at home was at it's worst. He would never let the conversation get to far without me understanding I needed to repent and be forgiven my debt. Lovingly but very direct. He knew that like most "Christians", I could fool myself and just try to add Church and Christ to my life to make it better. But Jesus will not be an addition to your life, he is your life.... or nothing. No, he let me know that I had a debt way to large for me to pay to my Creator and in fact, nothing else much mattered until that was taken care of. Honestly, he scared me a little but that kind of fear is worth more than gold, baby.
We are getting too long. I'll finish up what eventually happened in my next post and it won't be long before I post it. I promise. Maybe tomorrow. I have been pretty intense in my writings lately BUT after this next post I am going to lighten way up for a while. One thing we are going to do; Me and my pal Anthony Goodroe are starting a book club and are asking whoever wants to join us for that to let us know. Our first book will be THE SCREWTAPE LETTERS BY C. S. LEWIS. But more on that in the next few days.
Before the second half of my testimony and before I lighten up a bit, there is one thing that I did want to make clear. I know these last 6-10 posts (and even some of the videos) have been very intense. I must admit to you that, even though I know I can't, I have been trying to crush you. Not physically but emotionally broken. But in that way you're crushed when you find out some horrifying news or the way you feel when you realize you have done something horribly wrong. I very much want to be an agent that is part of you feeling the hole in your chest and the debt paid, potentially for you. I also feel that, as in Chapter 3 of John above, the wind is blowing your way if God has you sitting in that chair your are sitting in and reading this blog about what He has done. But he won't force anything on you.
As for being intense and trying to crush you, can you handle a little more? Isn't it time to quit playing with this man?